Saturday, June 25, 2016

Just Us

I have a friend we have been on friendship since 6 years ago, she's clever , good girl & beautiful enough, I guess..!
we were in the same class, we were so close we are true bestfiend. I didn't care what people think about us. cuz we are just the way we are. she always number one in class she's the Top1 & I was the second one..! she's good enough on speech. very long speech like newspaper or like the train.  but it was her talent. I adore her about  that cuz I couldn't do the same thing.
we sit in the same table but I hate the fact that if there's group task from the teacher we would not be in the same group & it happen like every time.she always on the other side on the other group.
but I knew the reason why we always in the separated group cuz they didn't like us getting strong stronger & strongest group in class but it's not fair. why every one could choose their own group but why we were not.!! time keep moving & we showed to the world that we were true best friend. there's her there's me & everybody knew. even sometime we fought for the small thing, not sometime but we did a lot of those things. she got jealous when some girls getting close to me or when I just spent my time with other girl friends. I din't mean to make her jealous it's just pure friend...! sometimme I'm tired with those things cuz there's boundary between me and my other friend. and finally we fought we didnt talk anymore.. we din't sit in the same table we turned away our face from each other we kept away away away... even everyday we met everthing will nott be the same..! it happend for 3/4 months. we came back to normal cuz we grew up..! we do apologize. in some semester finally I could be higher than her... I beat her on our final report/score. the days turned the weeks, weeks turned to the motnhs & months turned to years . n we finished all the semester we graduated.. & we got the same score..!after innaguration we had little times to met...! n it just make me sad make me I missed her so much.. much much. sometimes I think about her. I appreciated our friendship for sure I did. but sometime I feel I'm going to fall in love with her. I didn't wish for these things. I know our friendship is special more than other I really admit it. we brave & strong enough to choose our way . I love the way you are. and I love the way we are.. but since I'm gone since those eyes couldn't see you since those hands couldn't hold you . you are just really important to me... & since those days I keep asking to myself . Do I love  you as a friend or there's more but I never told you n we were never talking about love. it has been three years we were in the different country. I miss you I miss talking to you I miss everything..! n now I'm going to college . I wish you were here with me... in the same college like our dream...! and now I realized I might not be fall in love with you... it's just the feeling that I miss our moments..! we are bestfriend n will always no matter what... if someday I will fall in love with you it's just the secret of god..! miss you meet you soon on November 

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Airport




people come people go..!!
every second every minute & every hour will not be the same
some people are feeling grateful  & just beautifully smile waiting for the lovely one comes
some people are feeling crazy for their feeling & just goodbye.
this place is the witness, real witness for all those feelings.

Airport













people come people go..!!
every second every minute & every hour will not be the same
some people are feeling grateful  & just beautifully smile waiting for the lovely one comes
some people are feeling crazy for their feeling & just goodbye.
this place is the witness, real witness for all those feelings.

The Memories



Standing over there..
always there in the same place
in the same place but in the different time
cuz memories were there cuz history had been made
standing to show it couldn't be fall, to show it was strong
even rain... sandstrom & the hotness of the summer come,
it would be there just be there like my memories.

Place; Katara, Doha Qatar


I was alone in the morning of summer

The smoke got cleared
when the days turned to months
And the months turned years
For the anger to fade

When I took a step back
The realization come
You weren't looking at me
You were looking instead
Somewhere over my head

Friday, May 27, 2016

Moment


You never know the value of a moment until it become memory by Dr.Suess


I couldn't agree more with Dr.Suess cuz it was true..!
a moment it's just simple thing but if we realized what's a moment it;s not just simple thing. it's history. it's memory in the past. and sometimes we wish we could replay a million times or a million moments just to get back in that moment but unfortunately we couldn't. people come people go.. but memory will always there

Friday, May 20, 2016

Friendship & Relationship



Friendship or relationship

Have you ever dated  your best friend? Do you feel awkward? Or just the same.Everything begins from stranger  becomes friend becomes  best friend and finally you got the relationship.best friend it’s like half of your soul without them you feel die or you got the empty life.  But how if we fall in love with our best friend? Will you keep away ? will you just be silent? Will you hide your feeling? Just talk, talk everything ...!! you can’t just hide your feelings.  And if you got it. it’s will be nice. It’s nice feeling having your best friend as your girlfriend/boyfriend.  And just keep your relationship ,fight for it. But if you are breakup It’s gonna be worst thing. Everything will be different ,maybe you can be a friend but it’s just not the same..! when you break up it’s just like you break everything your friendship n your relationship.you will be stranger, stranger with so much memories                        

In Case



I see the dark world... but I’m alone
When will come the light on me & taking me there
I never stop, stop to believe in  the time will come to me, I believe
In case god hears me I only ask love,  just love
Send it to me not any longer cuz I can’t live in loneliness

Love You Mom



Mom I love you...!

Thanks for giving me life
Thanks for taking care of me
Your an angel for your little boy & you are still an angel for your man
Thanks for all this love
Thanks for your warm smile
You are always here with me
Walk beside me & hold me tight
You are  guardian angel for your little boy
& you are still guardian angel even your wings getting weak & break
No need to find an angel cuz you are...!
Love you mom

Distance



Look at me listen close so I can tell you how I feel before I go. Just a year it’s not much time to show you I’m proud that you are mine.
That song it’s just so special for me it’s describe my feeling.
Thanks for all the people who love me thank for everyone who want me in your life.
All of you are part of my life. You give me color through this life even in darkest part.
Sometime I only ask one things...!!! can I just see people whom I love can I spent time with them.
Since I was child I always live from this place to other place. Move move & move
It’s make distance between people whom I love... it’s just make us so far away
Sometime I’m afraid that the distance will make them forget about  me
I’m afraid can’t see them again & again
I’m afraid can’t hold their hands when I miss them.
I’m afraid they will change...!
And this distance it’s jut true..!!
 I don’t know where’s my litlte friend now maybe they grow up now.
I try to find them...!! but I couldn’t find it even in social media.
But just you know guys this love for you is real...!! thanks

Thursday, May 19, 2016

A doll



This doll is for you but I can't give it now cuz we are not in the same place we are in different place especially different country This is for my best friend .... and you are the one and only I'm thinking about. N when I miss u I just looked at this doll like an idiot n wish u were here with me...... I love our friendship but I feel like I'm going to fall. Don't let it be... Please . Our friendship is special more than others n I really admit it. We are brave n strong enough to choose our way... I love the way you are thinking about it feel like u are different. Since I’m gone... since those eyes couldn't see you, since those hands couldn't hold u... I just I realized that you, you are really Important to me... and since that day I just asked by myself do I love u........? Do I love you as my friend or is there more... I never told u that I love u n we never talked bout love....! n if someday I will fall.... into you. .Into ur love what should I do.? n I just ask am I wrong. ?... This is just Lil story bout us


ibnu damanudin